Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Pre-Grace??

I asked a certain group of believers if they ever struggle with seeing themselves as “pre-grace”. This is where you know you have been forgiven, but you still see yourself as that sinful person. At times, I still see myself as that punk 12 year old trying to steal cigarettes from the Exxon. It amazed me at the way almost all the eyes went to the floor. It must be an epidemic. We have to learn to see ourselves as God sees us.

I think of Paul when he said, “And I thank Christ Jesus our Lord, who has enabled me, for that He counted me faithful putting me into the ministry; who was before a blasphemer, and a persecutor, and injurious: but I obtained mercy.” He understood how that “if any man be in Christ he is a new creature”. He did not forget all that he was, but he also did not allow what he was to define him. His identity was not in being what he used to be, but in being not what he used to be (read that again).

I wonder how many of us see ourselves as a new creation. We know we are forgiven, but we struggle to see ourselves as clean. One small sin can throw us back into the deepest feelings of regret and sorrow. See yourself as God sees you.

I WAS WHAT I WAS, BUT PRAISE GOD I’M NOT WHAT I WAS!

4 comments:

The Rousseaus said...

Not seeing oneself as the deeds of their past is a difficult concept for me as especially. My wife and I say alot how much we've grown as people everyday since the day we met. Amazing it is to look back and see ourselves being Divinely led to a better life, a church home, and a spiritual relationship with our Creator that grows exponentially each passing sunset. Maybe it was in those times that I'm not so proud of that I was unknowingly guided by the Lord most of all. Because each step taken back then led me to this day, with a beautiful wife and a wonderful son, and Glory to Him who saw fit to bless me in such a way before I was even saved. Grateful just doesnt say it.

Cory Wayne's Brain said...

I Praise God for your comment. It is the pinnacle of Christian purpose to see God take one with your story, save you from your sins, and then use your story to continue to break your heart concerning His Greatness (praise be to God!!!).
You're right, grateful doesn't do it justice. This is the awe that God always intended to inspire in us. I can't wait until the day that I stand in His presence and nothing is allowed to interfere with this feeling of humility, thankfulness, and reverence at His greatness.(you gonna get me preachin'!)

Unknown said...

Josh, what a beautiful testimony...it just made my day when I read it.
Just like you I believe through some of the worst times of my life, God has used those moments to give me a glimpse of His Glory,and you are so right there are no words expressive enough to say Thank You for all He's done for me.

You do have a beautiful family and I am so glad we are all apart of LDMBC. I feel God has Great things in store for our church...these are exciting days.....

abainfrance said...

Grateful that God can use West Rusk High School graduates all over the world! Good to hear from you Josh. JASON